Eiza Gonzalez "wasn't able to cry for four years" after her dad passed away
The 35-year-old actress' dad, Carlos Gonzalez, died in a motorcycle accident "exactly 10 days" after her 12th birthday, and Eiza has admitted that she descended into "complete and utter denial" about his passing
1 April 2025
The Hollywood star said on the 'Podcrushed' podcast: "My dad was a really good man. He cared about people so much. And I just couldn't connect, the unfairness of him dying.
"I just was like, '(Of) all the f****** s***** people in the world, him?"
The tragedy actually made Eiza question her own faith in God.
The actress explained: "It made me not believe in anything bigger ... I lost faith completely. And I had a real hard realisation of my dynamic with my father.
"I wasn't able to cry for four years. Four or five years - I didn't cry at all. I was just in complete and utter denial. And, simultaneously, I started my career, and I needed to cry a lot for work."
Eiza struggled to process her own grief for years, and she entered "survival mode" by focusing on her burgeoning career.
The 'Bloodshot' star shared: "Something died in me, and I just completely removed myself from my father. Like, I just couldn't. It was so unbearable that I just sort of walked away.
"It was a really tough time. I dove into work. I was in survival mode constantly."
Eiza previously explained that it took her five years to "accept [her] loss".
The movie star - who ultimately turned to therapy to help process her grief - said via an Instagram post: "Between the ages of 15 and 20 was very hard for me because I used to eat compulsively. It took me a long time to decipher that it was all happening because I was depressed after my dad died.
"And it was very hard for me but I changed my eating habits and began eating healthier and I began taking care of myself in all areas. It took me 5 years to get out of depression and accept my loss. (sic)"
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